This may have been one of your best and most important videos. You’re an incredible person, Illy. ❤

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You don’t get to explain 😤

Hello rebecca

I agree, Becca. It must not have been easy for her to talk about this topic, and yet she did. I bet it was a huge weight off her chest, and as a fan, I'm really happy and proud of her. :)

Yea

As a person who's mother has threatened to send them multiple times... Thank you. My mental health is often never taken seriously, and 'sending me away' is used as a threat rather than an option to help me. You are an amazing person, Illy!

Same

Same, I vividly remember her telling me “that’s where crazies go. It won’t be good for you.”. It discouraged me from ever talking about this again.

U dont want to go, they dont help u, they just make sure u cant die while ur there

Same. My parents think I’m crazy because I have weird flashbacks of stuff and sometimes I question myself in very scary ways.

Y'all should see about getting into free online therapy. A school counselor or city resource worker should be able to direct you.

this gave me the courage to tell my mom about the thoughts i’ve been having. i just told her, we cried, she hugged me. we’re going to the doctor tomorrow

omg i hope you get well! good luck!

How did it go?

I wish my mom was like that. Though I don’t know if she will handle me telling her that I have 15 disorders and bad mental health- Hopefully this video gives me courage as well

@DaNewDoggoInTown i went to the hospital for a while, got on new medicine, and i got home a couple day ago. i’m feeling a bit better and i feel like everyone in the house is a little more educated on my condition and how i’m not just “sad”.

@Disabled Rat Thats good , hope u dont die.

This was emotional to watch. When you said "people will miss you" and "seeking help doesn't make you a burden" just got to me This video hits like a bus.

you know what else hits like a bus? a bus

@MrBlakeBoy lmao

​@MrBlakeBoy why was this funny to me my humour is broken

I began tearing up and crying when she said that, just a few days ago I was telling myself ppl wouldnt miss me, and that part made me feel like they would, I love Illyssa for the content they create

@Pax.loserrr I know people would miss you. Everyone has a purpose in this world including you

It's so hard to talk about psych ward experience. I was 24, and my oldest daughter was 2, and I felt like I was going to ruin her life by being the crazy mom. One of the other patients was pregnant, and we ended up talking about her anxiety about becoming a mom, and I found that I actually had a lot of answers to her questions, which to me, meant that I was doing a decent job. Like, I didn't know everything, but my kid was happy and healthy. There was a guy who was obsessed with music, too, and I still had an old-school mp3 player instead of an iphone, so I got to keep that. I was able to play music for a bunch of us, and that gave us a lot to talk about. Also, there was the older man with tourettes who was always swearing, but played piano beautifully, and we sorta got used to the undercurrent of swearing and let it wash over us and away, and he was really sweet.

Wow, they all sound like absolutely amazing people and I hope they are doing better now.

Thank you! I wish you and yours, and they and theirs well. ❤

Omg that’s so sweet!🫶🫶🫶

you’re so lucky that you got such a wonderful psych ward. the nurses i had barely interacted with us, did not care, were condescending & overall rude. the place was a prison, i wasn’t allowed to get extra pillows, the beds were so uncomfortable, & i had to calm my roommate down after they had an episode bc the nurses wouldn’t do anything.

That sound horrible! Something should be done to prevent this bullshit from happening again!

So much this! Spreading information that these hospitals are GOOD is a big problem, it's going to end up with a lot more people who are traumatized by healthcare.

Exactly the experience for many people.. This video is horrible..

The nurses are acting like you came here to take care of the other patients I wouldn't be surprised that some patients had to stay longer because of the terrible nurses

how does some psych hospitals being places that create more trauma make a video like this with a person sharing HER experience with the hospital that she went to terrible?

When Illy said, "People will care if you disappear one day, they will notice, they will miss you more than you will ever know" I actually burst into tears, I really needed to hear that.

Same, I never knew I needed to hear that till now

bro same I cant-

ONG.

We cry together? 😢

Same, it often feels like nobody really cares and like I'm all alone in the universe, but hearing things like this helps. Hope you're doing alright.

As someone who’s been to psychiatric hospitals 7 times starting when I was only 9, and had issues with family members being cruel when they found out, this is one of the best things I’ve ever watched and I think more people need to watch it.

9 years old?! Oh my gosh!

You’re so strong! 🙏

this has completely changed my view on mental health wards, this video needs to be shared

My mom doesn’t take my mental health as seriously as I would like her too. She thinks that I feel like this only because of school and work but it’s more than that. I’ve tried to explain to her dozens of times, that even if my life isn’t horrible; I can still feel this way. How she sees it though is that you can only feel like this if your life isn’t great. My father is better but he doesn’t really talk about it. Honestly, when my mother says hurtful things, she wonders why I feel so depressed. She doesn’t understand I have to pretend to feel happy, so other people don’t worry about me. She still calls me selfish.

you should talk to someone else then

Yeah same, not saying we feel the same but im in the same situation.

@DA boi yeah, it’s rough

@I never learn i am. I had my first therapy session last last week

@{Random}{Thought§}  oh, well that's good :)

Thanks for making this video. It not only introduced me to your channel, but really brought me comfort. I was admitted at 16 for a psychotic episode (the first of many and the scariest, especially as a kid). The first week sucked (I was extremely delusional and paranoid), but then I got medications and the help I desperately needed. One month later (and an extra semester of high school), I was out. I ended up recently graduating with honours and am on my way to university with a couple of scholarships in tow! I did have a Maria, but I also had an "Alex." Alex was another psychotic patient and arrived after me. They comforted me during my hallucinations when nurses didn't understand, let me cry on their shoulder, taught me calligraphy, drew my portrait, let me win at cards. We snuck poems into the other's room. We opened up about our past and present trauma. The nurses, psychologists, and psychiatrists were amazing, but it was Alex who helped me start truly healing. I hope, wherever Alex is, that they're happy. I wish we had stayed in touch; I hope they know, somehow, how much they mean to me.

Wow you’re actually insane

Omg this is so sweet I started tearing up looking at this story, Alex really is an amazing person!

​@Petri Kortesuo ??? Why are you here bro

I feel like a lot of story time animators don’t talk about this kind of stuff, so thank you illy! You made me feel normal again

Great vid Illy!

This is such a great video and it helps so much. Thanks illy!

Oh my, it's the all powerful swoozie

I agree, this really helped me

This video is a W

Yep fr it was quite crazy!!!!!!

Knowing a fellow creator had grippy sock experiences like me makes me feel so seen and happy that I can relate and more awareness is being brought to how terrible mental illness is portrayed online and in the media - but also makes me sad as someone who knows the level of pain you had to go through to get admitted there. The message in the end made me tear up, wishing you all the love and healing positivity in your life Illy ❤‍🩹✨

i couldnt agree more Hono :)

Agreed 100%!!!

I’m not a creator but I have had the grippy sock experience 7 times

Thank you for posting this. I remember how scared I was before being admitted, and also I know it saved my life. Our healthcare system is still imperfect but I am grateful for the support it gave me, as incomplete and imperfect as it was, it gave me enough to keep going. I’m glad you’re still here, and I’m glad that you were able to get support and regain connection ❤

I was admitted to a mental hospital,but this video helped me overcome my fear of it,thank you Illy

I'm at high risk of being sent to a psyche ward involuntarily. I have really bad white coat syndrome but knowing that one of my favorite youtubers went to one and got better lifts such a heavy weight off my shoulders. tysm

I’ve been admitted ten times lol (thanks undiagnosed autism + child hood trauma.) My last time admitted was extremely traumatic. Super underfunded hospital, I was having a bad reaction to medication they gave me and the nurses not believing me was a recipe for disaster. I even had a nurse scream at me that nothing was physically wrong with me and refused for me to see a medical doctor even though at the time, I was so Ill I hadn’t been able to eat for four days and my skin felt like it was on fire I had to be coved with ice packs. I think it’s important that people aren’t afraid of going to a hospital for mental health care but also it’s not something to romanticize either. like it’s not just a fun and quirky vacation. I’m not saying this video is doing that but I have seen allot of posts on social media doing this. This incident has compounded my medical trauma (I was gaslit for years by doctors from my undiagnosed stage 4 endometriosis.) and it will now make me less likely to seek help in the future. Which is… just not good. There are still serious problems with the mental health industry and I’m not the only person who has had traumatic experiences while inpatient. Hopefully, things can change for the better for all of us.

“Seeking help doesn’t make you a burden, it doesn’t make you a attention seeker your not being dramatic or over sensitive what your feeling is real its sad and its scary” Really made me burst into tears

You and me both man. You and me both.

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another way to think about it, seeking help when you need it is making other people money so that they can survive

me too 😭

Hi

As someone who has been admitted at least 7 times since 2019, thank you. There’s such an awful stigma around this. My little brother recently had his first admission and was just as terrified as I was my first time but has realised how much they can help, just like I did. If more people work to break this stigma kids like you, myself and my little brother won’t need to fear these places.

Thanks to videos like this I feel less alone and healthier, thanks for sharing your story with people like me, who felt crazy for being in psychiatric hospitals. Good that you could recover, you are my inspiration

I find it a bit crazy how algorithm works because I randomly found your channel and to say the least, the style of your videos reminds me of the youtube videos i used to watch when i was in middle school and it brings me a lot of comfort. It heals me a lot. Your tone in your videos, the art style, everything really brings back memories. Definitely subscribing

I’ve been admitted to multiple psych wards throughout the years and you described how things are done there perfectly. You also did a good job debunking the stigma these places have had. Videos like this are important because it can make people feel more comfortable with getting the help they need, when they need it.

As someone who's struggled with anxiety, I have often wondered if anyone would care if I wasn't here or if anyone noticed I was here at all. I thank you, Illy so much for drawing awareness to mental health and not being scared to seek help. I feel a lot of people needed this message including myself. Keep making these amazing videos! :)

As a nurse that works mainly in the adolescent unit of a psychiatric hospital, I am really glad that a video like this exists. So many of the kids that come in could definitely benefit by seeing and hearing other's stories and seeing that they're not alone in their experiences.

if they have TV time maybe this would be good for them!

GOD BLESS YOU AND YOUR FAMILY AND YOUR FRIENDS AMEN 😇🦋😇

I have a question. I'm a teen and was thinking of becoming a nurse there. Idk if this is rude but do you get payed well? Do you enjoy your job? Have you ever been "unsuccessful" ?

I went once, and I spent the entire time scared and confused. I didn't get any treatment because I didn't understand how "locking me up" was supposed to help me. I then decided to never express any suicidal ideations from then on.

In my experience, hearing other people who is in a similar situation as one self, is the best part of therapy.

As someone who has been admitted many many times, this is amazing. I really wish I had something like this before I got admitted. This made me see my admissions as something other than embarrassing for the first time in a while. I also feel like I’m not so much of a burden if I need to ask for help. I’m really glad you’re still here and doing so much good for this world.

This helped me really badly. I was too scared to open up to my therapist in fear of being sent to a mental hospital, but now it doesn't seem so scary.

this is literally so relatable. i was first admitted when i was 13 and when i got out i told everyone i was sick. each time i have been admitted it is so scary, but i knew that it would keep me safe. it isn't bad to have mental health issues, there are always ppl that care about u, even if you don't see it

I've just discovered this channel and man, this really hits. I've never been admitted to a psych ward, but I've struggled with pretty bad mental health issues the past year (bad enough that I had to put my life on hold), and definitely felt like no one understood what I was going through. I hid the severity of my condition from my parents, and it was only through taking that first step and going to a therapist that helped me through it. Mental health is REAL and getting help (the right help) is so important.

I relate to this video SO MUCH! I am someone who struggles with my mental health constantly. I have too many diagnosis’s to count, and been in and out of hospitals, residentials, day programs, groups, and outpatient treatments since I was 12 (I’m now 21 now). It’s still a heck of a ride. But knowing that I’m not alone, makes me feel a little more understood. Even though I wouldn’t wish what I’ve been through upon anyone, others sharing makes me feel like there may still be hope. And strangely enough, my goal in life is to become a psychiatric nurse who works on a mental health unit. I feel like my empathy can be positively used to help others in similar situations. But first I need to continue to work on myself, before I help others. Because you can’t pour from an empty cup. Thank you so much for sharing part of your story! It really does mean a lot, and helps shed light on an really important topic! Sending much love, hugs, and support your way! -Gracie 🥹🥰😘😇

Everyone let’s all give a round of applause to illy for being brave ans strong to talk about her experiences with a psych ward. And to everyone else talking about their experiences,you are strong too,and we are happy to see you strong

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Thank you thank you!!!

When Illy said "people will care if you dissapear one day, they will noitice, they will miss you, more than you will ever know" i burst out in tears. That hit me hard. I've been really struggling and i think i might be suffering from some mental illness, but i haven't seeked help because i don't have reasons to go. What will i tell them? "oh i feel really sad, i feel like offing myself, i have no motivation, i don't want feel like eating, i hate my body and the online tests i've done have all said there's something wrong with me" that seems like attention seeking or self-diagnosing.

Self diagnosis is alright so long as you don't take it as complete gospel. Maybe you don't have what you think you have but your symptoms are definitely real. Self diagnosis can be a way to formulate your concerns to a medical professional or therapist , or a way to help accept and deal with your symptoms both internally and when explaining to others. So long as you are willing to take on the advice and any official diagnoses of doctors/therapists if/when you get it, self diagnosis is a perfectly fine first step.

@Robyn Drain well, in that case yeah, it would be okay i guess. I've just had a really bad expirence with people who take self-diagnosing too far.

It's okay to seek attention. Also, it's self-diagnosis to decide that what's bothering you isn't real/bad enough to need help.

The little bit at the end reassuring us we're not crazy or sensitive hit me right in the feels 🥺💕

Thank you for adressing this ❤ This was truly needed for a lot of people. Some people had to go to phyc wards and don't feel good or confident about it, but I'm sure this video helped, even if a little bit. Or at least I hope. My mom was in the phyc ward because she was struggling really, really bad. But I'm so glad she did go to one because it helped her a lot! I am so grateful for you and your videos and the mental hospitals. Love you, Illy! ❤

As a person who has been to a psych ward atleast 7 times alot of this stuff mentioned here hits hard and it's good that people are finally starting to realize that mental health is an actual thing that needs to be taken seriously. Awesome video aswell.

As someone who’s also been admitted several times, it’s very comforting in a strange way to know that I am not alone and that one of my favorite YouTubers has a similar experience to me. I know this must be extremely difficult to talk about, and I thank you from the bottom of my heart for sharing and making so many people feel less alone. This feels very de-stigmatizing and again, (I know I sound like a broken record,) thank you, you amazing person!

Bruhhhh ^^.

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I’ve also been admitted a couple of times and it’s nice that it’s talked about in a better way now :)

Like all of your videos, you did not have to share this. The fact you did is incredible. I am glad you are still here, and wish you all the best no matter where your life takes you Illy.

I was put into one because I was having a panic attack at school and some stupid day one police officer called a ambulance and I was put in my opinion unrighteously and it was horrible I peed on a man but as of now I’m so happy and much better I was supposedly need it too stay for a month but my father was so stressed out he had a seizure and I left along with him

i recently just got back from one and honestly i still struggle but going there genuinely helped me think to myself and realize that doing things i enjoy and hanging out with the right people make a big difference with how i viewed the world around me. mental institutions get such a bad reputation and the first time i went my parents were one of the people who believed those rumors and things about it so i was worried but once there i felt like i had time to think to myself, read a book, not have to worry about whose texting me and who isnt, and have a break from it all. yea there were some downs but everyone there was struggling with something i was as well and made me feel like i was heard. my parents learned how to be there for me and support me and i learned how to take their comfort and be there as well. not telling anyone was something i regret. so if you are struggling do mot be afraid to tell someone like i was. even if it is just going to a doctors appt and telling your doctor you are worried about your mental health it can be scary and you will feel guilt but i truly felt like i learned something going there. i felt like i was heard and i was surrounded by people who understood. i am 15 and now have my first job, i volunteer at a hospital, my scabs turn into scars, my grades are higher, i frequently talke to my parents when i do feel the ways i did before and i found someone who loves me for who i am. never be afraid to talk.

Being sent to a Mental hospital is one of the reasons I don’t open up to anyone Idk why but I’m afraid of hospitals. I find it so relieving to know that it’s not bad. I’ll still prob never tell anyone what I’m feeling not even my therapist but it’s nice to know.

I live in an "open living group" which is basically the dutch equivalent of a less restrictive psych ward, with "closed living group" being more like what you describe. Honestly, even if it's not exactly the same, I am so happy that you made this video as it really comforts me. Thanks, Illy. Really.

I understand. I've been in a psychiatry hospital twice. (First time I was 12, and the second was when I was 14). I can definitely say it's not a fun experience, but it helped me. It saved my life. And it made me realize that people actually care. You aren't alone. Stay safe, everyone!

Thank you for being willing to be open and honest about your experiences - the good, the bad, and the complex. You've endured so much and remained yourself, like you said. I've learned a lot about myself as a result, and I thank you for that too. We're glad to have you on this site

This is such a powerful video and it’s so relatable

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I was bawling by the end of this. Thank you for making this beautiful, real, raw and poignant reminder that we are all human and are simply doing the best we can, and that we don't have to do it all on our own. I'm so happy for you that you've come to so far, and just in case you need or want to hear it, I'm really, really proud of you. 💙

I’ve never been to the psych ward, but something tells me that I might have to. I’m going through some s3xual harassment at school and I’m really stressed out. Last year, I was accused of things that I never did, and I’ve had this overwhelming feeling of guilt. But I worry that people might think I’m some sort of psychopath when I open up about wanting to go to the psych ward.

I've never been involuntary admitted to a psych ward, but I have been voluntary twice. Your description of the general process is still spot on, and thank you for making this.

the :what happens after" got me. I cant explain how important content like this is. No matter how comfortble i get in my mental illness, it still has a strong and powerful doubt

feel like I might have depression but i’ve always been to scared to say anything in fear i’d be sent to one of these. i was heavily under influence of the stigmas, and i just want to thank you for educating me and everyone else. i feel inspired to actually talk it out with someone. thanks again

Hey Illy! I’m currently 12 and have been admitted to a mental hospital twice. It really has been damaging to tell people but this video really made me realize that needing help isn’t something to be ashamed of. Thank you so much for this video. I really needed it.❤

i hope youre doing a bit better now !

hope you are doing ok!

I hope you’re doing well

People like Illy really need to be heard by the community.

I hope the leaves crunch just right and the netflix logo hits the precise corner of the screen for you

Im extremely happy you're mentally and physically comfortable with telling us this. I hope you're doing well.😊

as a person who, being only 16, has stayed in a psych ward twice, this is very helpful and accurate

This video really made me wanna cry. Thank you. Raising awareness is so important. I went to a place for 7 days here in Oklahoma and was diagnosed Bipolar & ADHD. First time I’ve ever got medications/help/free vacation haha. 😂 but it started my path to self awareness and discipline… I’ll be starting anger management classes soon… something’s better than nothing right?

You are not someone who should be frowned upon because you decided to get help. You go girl!

Depending on the facility you go to you might have fun & meet some dope people. We had a day room so we would play board games, talk crap about tv shows, draw, paint, color, listen to music of our choice, do yoga routines with our yoga instructor & go on smoke breaks 4 times a day. Our favorite part of each day was the great food they had with a soda machine in the cafeteria as well. We would all ask each other about our lives & how we ended up being there. It felt good to be heard & to hear other people’s stories.

I'm a counseling intern at a psych hospital. Genuinely thank you for trying to break the stigma. More people need to be like you. This was extremely brave. Another banger as always.

Hey sorry if this is weird, but can I ask what degree you got to intern at a psych hospital? I’m only in my first year of a Bachelors of Arts psych study, but I feel like I don’t have much direction rn

@sopgiav  yeah no problem! I'm in my first intern class for my masters in counseling degree. I got my bachelors in psychology as well so thats a good path to the clinical route if that's what you wanna do. Still got a year until I get my license and degree though.

are you a mariah or a susan

I also was hospitalized when I was 13-14 and the experience was scary but I was never ashamed. It’s not bc I had a safe space to open up but bc I always believe to create a safe place for people to open up. Through me being open about it I discovered SO SO SO many people have gone and just felt so ashamed to talk about it but the smile in their face when we talk about it reminding them that they have gone far from that moment is so worth it.

Me being a person that is plagued with several mental illnesses (all of them undiagnosed) and someone who has had four of my siblings gone to a mental hospital, i am still terrified.

Thank you for this (: I can’t imagine how scary your first time was thank you for spreading awareness

Thank you for sharing your experiences. I was hospitalized in a psych unit voluntarily back in 2015. Halloween is my least favorite time of year frankly. And thank you so much for saying the things I’m sure a lot of us need to hear but don’t.❤

as someone who was admitted at age 8, i'm so glad someone was able to speak up about the stereotypes of the psych ward and how it isn't for crazy or insane people from how it's depicted in movies but more to help them, and it isn't everyone's bag of onions but for some people it helped them a lot :)

i hope that more and more funding goes into spreading the importance of mental health 😭💙

I am glad things have gotten better for mental Healthcare since 2005! I loved my time as an inpatient and met some wonderful, troubled, amazing people during my time. I still can't talk about it but it's getting easier and that's beautiful! 💜🌟

Never feel ashamed about being in a psych ward , and getting help . Please remember mental health is important and there’s no shame. We all need help and it’s perfectly ok to ask for that help. There’s a lot of great nurses and doctors who are ready to help you at any given moment . You’re not alone in this 😊 May god bless you and I hope all gets better for you

I don't know you and not even sure how this video came to me but I'm so glad it did. Thank you for telling your story. As I've gotten older I've come to realize that the scariest part about facing difficult situations is the presumption of what could happen and that the reality is almost always way less scary than what we make something in our minds. Self care isn't all manicures and lattes, it's about recognizing that you need to do something for yourself that isn't the easiest thing to do. But you are a wonderful example courage and self-love and I know that there will be many other people who seek treatment because you were willing to talk about it. If you have a bad day, just try and think about the fact that you are making a huge difference just by being you.

I almost cried when you said, "People will care if you disappear one day, they will notice, they will miss you more than you will ever know." I needed to hear that! Thank you for helping to destigmatize mental health hospitals, and for having the strength to tell your story! You seem like an amazing person! ❤️

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Same, but I actually did start crying.

It's interesting to me to hear and see this from a more western pov, here in the balkans it truly is no one really cares where or what you're doing, people you've grown a connection to seemingly just drop you outright like a toy they don't have any interest anymore, psyc wards I'd say are similar to how they are in the west but the stigma is even stronger then it ever has been, you are treated as if you're an outcast of sociaty the moment you mention you have any issues or have tried getting help, as someone that suffers from very visceral schizophrenic episodes and adhd it's frustrating to see and just makes me want to leave this shithole of a culture even more.

@runningtoastgirl77 me too

Same

I gained a bit of trauma from my most recent visit but I really learned a lot. Im so happy that you're speaking about this. I appreciate you so much!

This video is so important to me, and thank you for making it. I was under house hospitalization (due to Covid, I couldn’t go into the hospital due to lack of beds) and it’s happened twice- but I wish I had the courage to ask for help before and after those. I love this video, so thank you so much 💜

When my sister was admitted into the hospital, she hated it at first and bawled her eyes out. She was scared because some of the girls there were clinically troubled and screamed or cried, and she didn't know what to do about it. Eventually though, she made good friends, and her group counsler was super helpful. If you're experiencing trouble, go to someon4 and consider getting admitted. The scariest part is taking a step towards the big change that comes with telling someone, but things go back to thinging after you get better, and you get help. You'll meet people who will become some of your closest friends, people that will understand.

Illy, I was in a hospital during June 2020 and since finding this video (as a 30 year old) I’ve used it to explain to my family how I behaved with my experience. The stigma of going to a hospital is so hurtful. Before my hospitalization, being inpatient was one of my biggest fears because I had no real sources to look at that talk about the realities of this experience. All I knew was the things in media about asylums or “looney bins.” My frames of reference were things like seeing clips of AHS: Asylum, Girl Interrupted, Ace Ventura Pet Detective, Sweeney Todd (briefly shown and talked about), that one episode of Psych…. So my two ideas of what it’d be like were either incredibly dark and terrifying with dungeon like cells, or large sprawling estates where the people around me would be so far detached from reality that they’d just wander these large grounds seemingly unattended? I was petrified. I came out the other side better, my family and I more on board with making sure I’m not so detached that I’m hiding feelings that are dangerous to myself. I went back to two jobs, one whose hr department (not my wonderful managers and coworkers) made me fill out about a dozen pages for MLA none of which were related to mental health (because ~clearly~ the only reason people need medical leave is for physical issues, because the mind isn’t medical at all), the other just needed me and my doctors to let them know I was coming back and had a doctors note with the formal equivalent of a “yeah she’s good 👍” It’s been wild in the three years since seeing the growth I’ve made even if it doesn’t always feel like giant leaps and bounds. There’s still a LONG way to go with mental health care and support in the medical system. But it’s nice to know that there are people in that system working to make things better for us going through it.

This is actually an amazing thing to talk about

I can’t be the only one who’s loved watching illy’s channel turn into such a safe educational place while still keeping that same humor she’s always had in her videos💗

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i don't wanna be that person but her name isn't lily-

@junox. ☆ it’s probably just a typo, they seem to be a regular viewer or they make it sound as though they are

@Antje Whipple i thought it was probably a typo, but i was just saying that in case they actually didn't know.

Thank you for this. The end made me pretty emotional, and my emotions are fairly stunted so that is saying something. My wife went through a similar situation with her ex as your old video where I'm assuming got you all the hate. I showed it to her to help her work through some of her issues. Recently she's not doing so well and I've been worried she might have to be admitted to a psych ward. I think this video might help her. Thank you for being so open with your trauma even though there are assholes on the internet and irl who will hold it against you. You are very brave.

It’s so nice I went back! But for real though as someone who’s gone to the psych ward I wanna thank you for making this video and helping to break the stigma surrounding mental health❤

We’re here for you and all your supporters, friends, family and everybody around you you don’t feel like you have nobody and by the way, one of my favourite Youtubers thanks for playing a huge role in my life and the way I got from my own struggle by listening to yours. Thank you.💗

That's really sweet of you to encourage folks to get help. I hope others will find help through these channels and they have safe (if difficult still) journeys.

I'm so happy mental hospitals are talked abt more nowdays in a brighter light rather than being looked at as a bad thing. Good work Illy and thank you so much for sharing something so personal, your a very brave person!

Everyone let's give a round of applause to lily for being brave and strong to talk

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Lily? Who's that? Also 👏👏👏👏👏👏

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👏👏👏👏👏👏 and btw it's Illysa, (pronounced alyssa)

Im so glad you decided to talk about this. Ive been threatened to be sent there before.. but if it ever happens, i won't be scared! Thank you, illy

Oddly enough, my time in psych wards have probably been some of my best experiences in my life so far. I made some really good friends there, and even had my first kiss in my 2nd stay

I'm going to try to get myself admitted to a good hospital for my own good. I have violent anger issues and need help with them. Thank you for telling your story Illy. I hope I have a good nurse like Maria. Love you all

When I was younger I went through a rough patch, this video describes many of the things I was feeling at the time. Thank you so much. My advice is to talk to someone whenever you are feeling low, it may be scary at first, but it definitely helps. I am now mostly better but I sometimes have rough days.

Aw! We're right behind you Illy! You rock and don't let anything anyone says or does make you feel different!

Speaking as someone from Bangladesh, a third world country, this is something we so desperately need. But we're stuck in the (in the American context) 1950s when in comes to mental healthcare. Just knowing that this type of acceptance exists somewhere on this planet is immensely helpful. Sending this to all my depressed friends. ♥️

I hope Bangladesh gets better mental care soon

yeah, some as a middle eastern. mental health in asia has a loooong way to go

im bangladeshi :)

haha im from south asia as well, mental healthcare is so very underdeveloped

I hope your country can get good mental Healthcare in the near future, the one thing everyone should be able to get is adequate and accessible mental Healthcare without persecution or judgment. My country still has so far to go in getting great mental Healthcare, but I bet most people here would come to appreciate how incredible our system is compared to the developing world

I had a 90 day stay and I got out exactly a week ago, this video helped me feel not alone knowing people are really talking about the stigma

“People will care if you disappear one day. They will notice. They will miss you more than you will ever know.” This was extremely inspirational especially for me who is severely depressed, and has lost hope in anyone caring for me, or life in general. Thanks for the reminder :)

Wow, its strange how different and yet how similar our experiences were. I was involuntarily admitted when i was 11, and i had to stay there for 9 months, then got transferred to a different facility and had to stay there for about a year. Im still a minor, and ive talked to my parents about voluntarily admitting myself, but they say everything is fine with me, i dont have to go back, and if i go back, theyll keep me there till im 18. :(

Wow, this had me re-live a lot. I had pretty much the exact same experiences a few years ago in high school. Anyway, thanks so much for bringing attention to this! (And um, thanks for that message at the end about how people will miss you. Even though I'm okay now, it's still really nice to hear.)

I have been in patient 2 times in my life, but the people that worked there have been so sweet. I was hospitalized for a week each time, but was sent to the ER several about 3 times and this video made me cry of happiness, hesrimg someone talk aboutbthe positive side of this. To anyone who needs the helo, just remember that we all care and love you❤

Illy, thank you for making this. I'm 13 and I've been admitted too a psyche ward twice. I don't think I can explain how much seeing one of my favorite animators talk about this kind of experience means to me.

Same im also 13 and have been to a psych word twice it is very difficult

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​@Beretta ♞ really?

i am also thirteen i've been admitted once but i can agree with you

@Beretta ♞ can you just like not?

This genuinely made me cry. I've been trying to seek help for so long, I had a therapist for a few weeks, but not even he helped. Asking for help is scary, I've asked my parents for help and was ignored. For years, I've been ignored about my mental health until one day in 2022, but not even my mother took me in. She just threatened evaluation. For anyone struggling out there, reach out for help if you can. Find someone you can trust and talk to them. Even if it's family, friends, or a professional.

Thank you so much for this video and your vulnerability. I have been in a dark place for so long and this video has pushed me to get the help I need. I am not a burden nor is anyone else. Thank you Illy❤️

this video is honestly so nice i was admitted to the psych ward 5 times between the ages of 11 and 12, and i think if i was able to see this 5 years ago, it wouldve helped alot im happy you can make this video and share it with others who are scared, i think it’s extremely brave and amazing :)

It’s crazy how someone can be going through so much pain and on the outside it looks like they are all good and ok

Using an anonymous account because I don't usually comment, but I just wanted to say thank you. As a 15 year old that has been contemplating suicide for the last year or so, hearing that "people will miss you" made me realize that there is people I have in my life to live for. I've been afraid of telling a therapist or my parents about being suicidal, because I was afraid of being admitted to a psych ward, but after seeing this I might decide to be a little more open with them. Thank you so much

Yes get help if you need it!!! There is always at least one person who will be willing to listen and maybe even help you get help

I know it is difficult, but please get help if you can! Sending lots of love to you 💖

yes i’m 100% sure you have people to live for! like the other comments said, it’s really important to get help, i hope everything goes well for you 💕

In my experience by far the worst part of psych wards (I’ve been in 6 times) is the mind numbing boredom, bring books and/or coloring books

dont tell ur parents or a therapist, thats one of the dumbest things u could do. u dont want to talk to ppl who dont understand and also you'd just be reaffirming stigmas that all young ppl are mentally ill. plus, therapy is way too expensive

This woman is the sweetest woman alive and people made fun of her? Girl, you are amazing.

I’ve never seen a video that’s so gentle yet so powerful. Thank you for sharing your experience and taking the time to educate others.

When I was 16 I was sent to a hospital without seeing a doctor because my mom's boyfriend had some kind of magistrate friend write up a bullshit reason about me trying to kill my mother after a week the nurse knew it was bullshit and I ended up in a series of sessions with lots of people I didn't know who asked me lots of questions about my home life, then they left me alone 2 months I stayed in that hospital, before I found out the staff had reached out to my grandparents and had the state put me in their custody because they knew I had been abused as a kid and wasn't dangerous at all it was the most peaceful 2 months of my life, so calm, so regular, no stressors at all

I've never been to a pysch ward before but god damn I didn't realise how much I needed to hear these words atm. Thank you for sharing your story you're really an amazing person :]

this was a video i needed to see. I have been feeling immensely out of it lately, and the stigma and the way i was raised to hide my emotions to not be a burden have made it really hard for me to seek the help i need. I will update this after my doctor appointment in october (yes thats a long time away, but if things get bad enough again, i can check myself in as im 18 now) to share how things went. For the past like 2-3 years, i have been saying that i would go and finally get the help i needed, but i always panic and lie to the doctors and say im fine. That is the biggest and probably most harmful to myself lie that i tell people. "I'm fine" but i know full well that i am not fine. Thank you for making this video, it has really opened my eyes that it is not a burden to need help. This was the first video of yours that i have seen, but it came at a very important time, as i am going through a bunch of things right now.